aksar

('aksar' is one of my favorite songs. below is the link to the video, original lyrics and my english tranlsation.)

video

aksar kyun yuun lage ki tum koyi aur ho
hum tum jahaan the mile woh guzra hua taur ho
aksar phir yuun lage ke tum meri jaan ho
tumse meri jindagi, tum hi meri pehchaan ho
aksar....dil hi dil aksar,
haan tumhe sochkar....dil hi dil aksar

why does it often feel like you are someone else
like the place where you and i met, was a phase that passed
yet often it feels like you are my life
by you i live, you are my identity
often... deep within my heart... often
yes, just thinking of you... my inmost heart goes on... often

aksar dil ko hai gila ki tumse mujhe kya mila
meri jindagi mere pyaar ka tumne diya kya sila
phir kabhi jab kareeb se main khud ko dekh loon agar
dil ke aayine mein bas tum hi tum aayogi nazar
aksar....dil hi dil aksar,
haan tumhe sochkar....dil hi dil aksar

often my heart questions what i got from you
what have you given me for my life and my love that i gave you
but again if i take a close look at myself
i see you and only you in the mirror of my heart
often... deep within my heart... often
yes, just thinking of you... my inmost heart goes on... often

aksar ek sawaal sa mere zehen mein uthe
hum tum agar bichhad gaye honge kaise silsilein
ghabaraake iss khayaal se main tumse phir lipat gaya
tum ho toh main bhi hoon abb tumse main jaaun kahaan
tumse jaaun main kahaan.. haan tumhein sochkar dil hi dil aksar
aksar....dil hi dil aksar,
haan tumhe sochkar....dil hi dil aksar
la la hey hey hey hey.... haan tumhein sochkar dil hi dil aksar

often a question arises from the core of my soul
if we part ways, how will things go on?
frightened by this thought, again I clung on to you
you are and so I am, now where do I go from you?
where do I go from you? yes, just thinking of you, deep within my heart... often
often... deep within my heart... often
yes, just thinking of you... my inmost heart goes on... often
just thinking of you... my inmost heart goes on... often

the sand state

(this is about women in general who take different forms and about a woman who is in sand state)

sand, soil, clay, mold and mud
soft, loose, wet, warm, yellow, brown and red
children create castles
brick buildings boys build
some sculpt

water gives shape
breeze dries to form
a wave, too much to take
wind blows, breaks
wish they were gentle, some patterns
for the sand doesn't know to hold
nor see wind from breeze

plants pierce to prosper
trees hold as much to stay
earth, the world rests on
in solitude, sand strives...

alone

('alone' is about people in my life who are alone)

2000m above sea, on her way, weighting, my paati
ma, juggling pasts and presents
pa, fighting fears and failures
confused by infused ideas, akka wakes
mama, drained and dried
building tumbling towers in the basement, rohan, baffled
raghav smiles. scored by shadowed sweetness, my heart skips
my love, swimming in superimposed episodes
bold, beautiful, broken, my friend
I am sat down, silenced by juxtaposed realities
alone

(paati - grandmother, ma - mom, pa - dad, akka - sister, mama - brother-in-law)